Zekeriya Guser – Captivated conductor of my very own extraordinary journey.

And it always is an unexpected one. Regardless of their age, health condition or even life style. But we feel sorry for them and start to question our own life; how not to be in the same shoes as them or same coffin in fact. But it’s always even more unexpected when they are only 30 years old, perfectly healthy and full of life.

But we also think about every single moment we spend with them prior to their unpected migration. This is always something we don’t spare time for and only when they die we find that little time and cherish the memories. And while then, we remember the promises we gave them for which we never had time for. On these moment the guilt kicks in as hard as possible. And it became bigger as you know that you will never be able to fulfill these promises. You get angry to yourself for not finding the time for it. And remember that you will never ever be able to say you are sorry about it. And here you go; a burden on your shoulders. A burden that will stay there for the rest of your life.

And one thinks these burdens might make you realize not to postpone such things even if these promises are as silly as carrying someone on your shoulders at the new year’s eve when there is snow. As silly as it might be still a promise is a promise and at this very occasion it’s one that will never be fulfilled.

At this point I guess what to be told is “don’t postpone anything with the people you care”. But as we all know we won’t so there isn’t much of a point. We won’t ever learn from our mistakes and keep collecting burdens on our shoulders. Just a bit more with every single funeral.

I guess as a conclusion we might say that every single coffin is a simple reminder that our life’s are going to be even more traumatizing by every second passes.

Rest in Peace Asil,

Zac,